ever have those moments when a moment in your life seems to follow a movie you watched not long ago? when those memorable quotes echo how you feel about your current situation? yeah, i guess it’s how art mirrors reality. anyway, just a thought.

today, as i was walking back from badminton, there was a female not walking too far ahead of me on the sidewalk. for those who know me, im a fast walker, even for chinese standards, so i soon was close to her. as soon as she heard my footsteps, she began to make about a 2 meter berth between me and her. i thought it was odd (maybe the body odor of sports really bothers women), or maybe it was because i seemed like a rapist or something (you can fit a lot of dildos and chloroform-soaked  in my badminton bag for sure). whatever. i go into a convenience store to buy some beverage, so she was ahead of me again. as i closed the distance again, i saw another male pedestrian walking towards her, and she did the same thing she did to me-immediately try to get as far away as humanly can  from that person. after the odd sequence of events which i observed, i realized that any conclusion i make isn’t a fortunate one for her.

c’est la vie…in china.

it’s been a waking up call as of late—getting to the top of the design field, it’s not easy to maintain a high-quality work rate. automotive design is heralded by most as the most complex form of design. PATAC or Pan-Asia Technical Automotive Center, (the place im working at) likes to think of themselves retaining a first-rate design department. and i’m here, feeling kind of stupid. i don’t know. for some reason, i feel like every part of me pales in comparison with things here. now i know how much distance i need to cover from the things i learned at tech to the things i need to work at the top of the field—and it’s a long, uphill, winding path. 

so, today was the second day of my internship at Shanghai General Motors. and sorry about the long absence of updates. i’m pretty sure you all stopped checking because i’ve, well, stopped writing. in my defense, it’s not my fault. for the past week and a half, i have not been able to access the internet. there. responsibility avoided. 

anyway, being here, it kinda feels like this:

the moment i stepped into the design building i was blown away. you know those car commercials where they show you the clay models and stuff? well, i was in that commercial, because there were clay models of buick vehicles EVERYWHERE. i was astounded. and the more i looked, the more i doubled checked to make sure this wasn’t a dream. i was told today that photo-taking is strictly prohibited, due to the fact that everything that happens in the design department are the core of the company. secrets that people WILL steal if they get the chance, so i’m sorry that at the moment i am unable to provide photos for you. 

a little more background. apparently SGM holds this internship program every year, and usually they get the best group of students from the top universities in china. i do have to say it’s an honor being here, and i’ve gotta rep GT well. 

well, onto my work. will post later.

i realize that there aren’t a lot of deep posts on my dashboard. it’s ok, copypasting is rather common among internet lurkers. however, i feel that having some hardcore original content is the way for me. while were on this topic, here’s something to look at.

yeah, ok, so i do it too. but just look at how badass this guy is! for the sake of glory, he swallowed his pride. get it? he swallowed-

…anyways, i hope i dont have to explain that joke to you. 

so, yeah, im still in shanghai. come july im about to start my internship with Shanghai GM. i really hope it’s in the Jinmao Tower, because that would be so awesome. for those who don’t know what it is, it’s this:

yeah, it’s an awesome skyscraper. i keep my fingers crossed.

so far it’s been a maturing journey for me. you know that feeling when events cross your path, and you feel very, for the lack of a better term, right? well, so far, being here, sketching chairs for most of my work days, and observing every aspect of manufacturing and production, i feel for the first time in a long time, things aren’t as gloomy. i’m so thirsty for knowledge. 

another ‘thing’ that’s been forefront in my life as of now, is this feeling. it’s hard to describe. i feel like i’m observing everything happening around me in a 3rd person point of view. i don’t ‘feel’ as i should when i talk to people, when good, bad, weird events occur. i feel, as of right now, detached. everything feels like it’s covered in clear plastic wrap. clearly seen but unreachable.